Monday, February 18, 2019

Cause? Effect? Random?

Blessings Darlings!

I've had more energy and less executive dysfunction lately than I've had in ... ages.  This is WONDERFUL when you've had various types of depression, well, pretty much all my life.  Therefore, I'm trying to figure out 'what I did' that caused the change.

I'm doing this even tho' I fully realize that I'm not actually in full control of my brain chemistry.  But I REALLY WANT TO BE fully in charge of my brain chemistry.  I like feeling good.  I want to stay feeling good.

So, I'm reviewing what I've been eating, drinking, exposure to sunlight, the changes I've made in the offerings I'm giving to all sorts of Spirits, the bed board I've added to the bed so the mattress is firmer, improved sleep, reduced caffeine, exercising, etc.

But ... I can't tell what might have helped CAUSE the improvement from what was CAUSED BY the improvement.  I've no idea what came first amongst the variables.  And there are SO MANY variables. 

I want to be in control,  while realizing that I'm never going to be in full control.  I'm doing factor analysis, laughing at myself for doing it, but continuing to contemplate it.

That said - I'm happy with what's going on.

Frondly, Fern

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